Everything is a Little Backwards...

Recently my life has seemed a little backwards, in many aspects. I have found extra motivation from who-knows-where, which over all, is a good thing, but it's still strange. I am normally a person that can't cry, even if I really want to, but recently I have been crying a lot, many times for reasons that I can't even explain to myself, let alone somebody else. My days and nights seemed to have been turned upside down because I can't seem to fall asleep before midnight, if I'm lucky, normally closer to 1 a.m. and I take multiple naps throughout the day (I haven't decided if this is a good or bad thing...).
The main thing that I have found is backwards from normal is that I am now the single friend from my group of friends in high school. This is a very strange phenomenon because of the 4 years I was in high school I was single for about 7 months. Yes, only 7 months out of 4 years... I know that I am supposed to be single right now, that is what God is telling me, but it is very strange and now I have so much to say about relationships to my friends who are currently in them but they probably won't listen to me because of all I have done in my relationships. I really wish that I could get past this stigma in my brain saying that they won't listen and tell them what I think without worrying about what they will say/think. But right now, I don't think it's worth the breath or the time. So, I will stay silent, for now, until I can't bear it anymore.
One thing that isn't backwards isn't my dad's attitude... I wish it were to flip upside. That would be very helpful, but alas, that won't happen in this lifetime. I am still stuck in the house with lectures about laundry to do (when they always have laundry in the washer/dryer) and wondering where I am always going and complaining that I am at church too much (what parent does that???) and where I am getting all the money for gas and food (one of which I wouldn't have to worry about if they would buy food that I liked in the first place).