One of Those Days

Ok, so I'm sure everyone has had one of those days before... And for those of you who have had those days you know what I'm talking about. But if not, I will explain. One of those days is a day where from the time you get up until after you lay down at night absolutely NOTHING goes right.

Today, I am having one of those days. Let me explain a little bit. When I woke up this morning, after about 3 hours of sleep , there was a feeling that it was going to be a crappy day. Boy, was I right!!! So, I took my first step into the day by putting on a Tweety shirt, because Tweety was my grandma's favorite character. After that I decided to go out and tackle the day, even though it feels like it tackled me instead.

My 8 a.m. class pretty much kicked my butt and I was ready for a nap by 9 but, alas, I had homework to do. Well, theoretically anyway, it didn't end up happening. I went to my 11 a.m. class and once again had my butt handed to me as I got up to leave. At this point I wanted to go home and sleep the rest of the day away and it was only noon.

I begin my way to a friends house in order to purposely make the day worse (not that I wanted to but we were going to do something that was really difficult to pull off, in turn making my day worse). After that was accomplished I got a text from my mom and immediately started crying. There was no stopping the tears, even though I had thought that I was previously out of tears. Turns out I had plenty of tears to cry. My grandma passed away this morning, and because of the family/court stuff going on right now (and has been going on for the past year and a half) I will not be able to attend the memorial service on Saturday. I also hadn't seen my grandma for about a year and a half to two years prior to this. I was gonna stop by and say hi a couple months ago, but because of the court stuff again, I was unable to do so. Now I feel terrible 'cause I haven't seen her and won't be able to go to the memorial and there is very little that a college kid in the state system can do in this situation. GAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Anyway, there is light at the end of this dark day, and I came across it after church. I was telling one of the parents at church about all of this along with the fact that tuition is due in less than a month and I'm stressed, which in turn, makes me not eat, and she decided to help a little bit, financially and spiritually. She gave me a check for $50, but more so, she said she would be praying for me.

Well, anyway, my paster prayed for me and asked God to turn my brain off at 11pm tonight so if I want to get any homework done, this better be the end of this blog.

The Important Things

Many people say that the "important" things in life are money, love, God, family, and friends; not necessarily in that order. I would have to agree, saying that family is the second most important of those important things, directly behind God. And right now, the most important member in my family is my grandpa. Recently finding out that he only has a couple months to live, many other family members have come into town to visit him while they can. This began to make me feel bad because they come into town from Denver or Kansas City and I live about 6 miles away and rarely see him but I am working on changing that.

Some people apparently disagree with those things being the most important. I invited my sister to go with me to visit him tomorrow. She originally agreed to go with me, but then all of a sudden decided that shopping for a new car, that I don't think they either need nor can they afford, is more important than seeing Grandpa. This basically broke my heart, and I can't even imagine what Grandpa would say if he found this piece of information out.

While talking to an aunt shortly after learning my sister wasn't going, she said that it's not my job to control the world even though sometimes I try to control it. I realized that that is basically what I am trying to do. I am trying to control what my sister does by what I believe she should do, and I can't do that, no matter how much I would love to.

On a brighter note about Grandpa, for Christmas he gave money to all of his kids (all 11 of his kids) and told them to split it with their kids (totaling 33ish grandkids). I ended up getting about $600 to spend on something that is NOT necessary for life to go on, no school, no car, no food, no gas, basically leaving me with clothing and jewelry. What I did with money was supposed to be something that I would alway remember Grandpa by. I found a black and white diamond set consisting of a ring and a necklace for just under $600. I will have it by February 6th, when we are celebrating his 87th birthday, which I think he will love to see what I got. Pictures to come soon.

Well, now that I have The Important Things figured out in life I should get back to the most pressing issue in my life... school, more particularly, homework...

First Post

Ok, so, I'm going to see if I can "regularly" post on this site, unlike my other one that kinda failed, even though I meant well... So, take 2. I'm basically just going to use this as a place to put my thoughts when they run around in my head too fast to catch them one at a time. I will let them run through my fingers to the keys. I have a feeling a lot of them will be random, about college, or about church; seeing as how that explains my life right now. I wish you happy reading and good luck on getting some insight into my mind.